Cleansing

Cleansing

It’s 9:00pm on a Sunday, which means that soon the sun will be rising on another work week and I won’t take a minute to reflect on anything.

I haven’t been so great at stuff lately. My transition to full time came at an already very busy time in my life, and also during my very least favorite time of year. February and March have always been horrible for me. I finally get fed up with the long nights and start to shut down.

It’s time for me to wake up.

I’m going on a cleanse. I hate sticking to plans, so this cleanse will only be for a week. But during this week, I will not take any more naps and I will not drink any more alcohol. My naps have been a major issue for the past couple months – I tell myself I’ll wake up as I set the alarm for 7pm, and then continue sleeping through the night without ever accomplishing anything. Alcohol has just recently become an issue. I am in the habit of having one drink every night. That’s it. Just one. But I never stop myself from having that one. And that one drink makes me just sleepy/cozy enough to take a nap. That one drink also costs way too much money for not even getting tipsy. And the fact that all I want right now is a glass of wine feels like a problem.

NO MORE.

This weekend I finally got myself kickstarted again with a 16 mile run. I need to make sure I stay on track.

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Up With the Sun

Up With the Sun

Now that the days are finally getting noticeably longer, I’m trying a new thing where I get up a the same time as sunrise every day. When daylight savings time ended, sunrise was right at the time that I always get up anyway, so I figured if I could keep that up and train myself to wake up with the sun, eventually I’ll be a super early riser and will be way more productive. I like doing things for myself before work, but I hardly ever get up early enough – and if I do make time, that just means I push back when I go in to the office, which I can’t do most days.

So far I’m not that great at it. Wish me luck!

expectations

expectations

sometimes you wake up totally ready to take on the day and make it yours. for me, that usually includes “getting my life in order,” which means cleaning the house so lauren doesn’t totally hate herself for living with me again and so i don’t break my neck when walking through my room.

lately, every day that i’ve woken up feeling like this, i’ve “accidentally” fallen asleep around 8:30pm and accomplished nothing.

TODAY WILL BE DIFFERENT.

it’s 11:30 and i’m just getting started. and we finally have a field trip tomorrow which means corralling twenty 9-year olds at a time for five hours. #makegoodchoices

also beer is delicious and can either be motivating or sleep inducing. #facts

too excited!

too excited!

I’m relieved that it’s a foggy, grey morning. Yesterday I was just too excited for the day. I had chocolate in my coffee and was stoked about that, and then it was so beautiful and spring-y and I was so buzzed on caffeine that I just couldn’t stand being at work. I was too excited! I sat there for a couple hours flitting between tasks and accomplishing nothing before I decided I needed to take a walk on the preserve to try to calm down. It ended up being kind of a long walk and didn’t help my excitement much, but at least enough to get a couple important emails sent so I could go home earlyish without totally failing. And it was totally worth it.

I have chocolate in my coffee today and I’m still pretty happy about that, but not enough to need a dance party. But no promises.

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full time life

full time life

I’ll admit, I’m ready for winter to be over. But not because of the snow and cold, only because of the short days and okay, a little bit the cold. The cold only gets in my way at night when I really should go for a run or go to the gym. And that is only bothering me right now because I’m supposed to be training for a marathon. Other than that, this has been a wonderful winter. It wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be based on last year, and we got a lot of our field trips in at work. I’m totally accustomed to the cold, but when I get home I start to feel lazy, which makes me want to get cozy, which makes me get into bed to be cozier, which for the last two weeks has resulted in me “accidentally” falling asleep at 7:30pm and not getting a single thing done at home.

It’s a vicious cycle, because then I’m motivated to get things done in the morning, but I need to be at work in the morning, so i dawdle for the first hour making my own to-do list for when I get home and have to stay at the office longer that day and..

I make a lot of excuses.

Bottom line, I’m getting really excited for this year. I’m excited for Steven to move here this summer and start helping me stay on top of life and stay motivated at home. I’m excited for the weddings and celebrations. I’m excited to take on new responsibilities at my job. I’m excited to hopefully join a few local groups and make some new friends. I’m excited to become an aunt. I’m really excited lately because I’m working on picking out my wedding shoes which means I get to splurge and not feel guilty and get really cute shoes that I love. I subscribed to birchbox and will hopefully get in better habits of taking care of myself, skin care/makeup confidance/health wise. I’ve been trying to look cute at work for the last couple of weeks because we haven’t had field trips so I don’t have to wear grungy field clothes and I like feeling fancy. Sometimes I even go as far as “business betch” and feel really professional. I’ve even started carrying a briefcase everyday instead of a backpack!

I’m feeling more bridal each day, which is a good feeling. I have never been all that excited to be a bride like I feel is expected of women, even though I’m stoked about the wedding. But as I start to actually nail down details, I embrace it more. I found a rehearsal dinner dress on my first try and it’s actually white, I’m really excited about shoes as I already mentioned, and I’m even starting to get excited about having a bridal shower (Steven’s aunt asked to throw one for me). With 149 days left to go, I need to stop procrastinating and cross some more things off that list.

Here are some pictures of what’s been going on so far this year, in no particular order, because pictures make blogs more fun:

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Steven was really excited to hold Lake Michigan when we visited West Beach on Valentines Day to see the ice shelf. I can’t wait til it’s warm and I can spend as much time as I want out here!

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As one of my new years resolutions, I pulled out my roommate’s keyboard and had mom give me a short lesson to get some tips on how to start. I quit playing when I was 10 or 11 which breaks my heart now.

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The last magazine I was subscribed to was TIME, because I always end up reading it when I go to my parents’ house and I thought it would be a nice way to keep up with the news. I got way behind with the weekly issues though, and decided it was best to cancel it and stop wasting paper. (I did eventually read them all before I recycled them, though. About two years later.) For Christmas I asked for National Geographic. The first issues of the year came this week. Wheee!

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Totally should have mentioned this in my January post, but I ran a 5k a couple weeks into the new year and WON it. Well, for the girls. Came in 5th overall. Not too shabby, even for a small race!

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Captain is as cute as ever. The size of his personality and ego constantly amaze me. I know I love him a lot more than any other dog, but I truly believe he’s one of a kind with all of his ridiculous expectations and habits.

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I was lucky enough to adopt my grandmother’s old sewing machine over Christmas. My mom did most of her sewing growing up on this machine. We’ve already been spending a lot of quality time together, mostly sewing decorations for the wedding. I meant to sew a coat for a Captain this winter, but I did at least repair some huge rips and holes in my rain pants so I could use them as a waterproof layer on snowy field trips.

That’s all for now, ya’ll. Hope to visit with you all again soon!