It’s 9:00pm on a Sunday, which means that soon the sun will be rising on another work week and I won’t take a minute to reflect on anything.
I haven’t been so great at stuff lately. My transition to full time came at an already very busy time in my life, and also during my very least favorite time of year. February and March have always been horrible for me. I finally get fed up with the long nights and start to shut down.
It’s time for me to wake up.
I’m going on a cleanse. I hate sticking to plans, so this cleanse will only be for a week. But during this week, I will not take any more naps and I will not drink any more alcohol. My naps have been a major issue for the past couple months – I tell myself I’ll wake up as I set the alarm for 7pm, and then continue sleeping through the night without ever accomplishing anything. Alcohol has just recently become an issue. I am in the habit of having one drink every night. That’s it. Just one. But I never stop myself from having that one. And that one drink makes me just sleepy/cozy enough to take a nap. That one drink also costs way too much money for not even getting tipsy. And the fact that all I want right now is a glass of wine feels like a problem.
This weekend I finally got myself kickstarted again with a 16 mile run. I need to make sure I stay on track.
Now that the days are finally getting noticeably longer, I’m trying a new thing where I get up a the same time as sunrise every day. When daylight savings time ended, sunrise was right at the time that I always get up anyway, so I figured if I could keep that up and train myself to wake up with the sun, eventually I’ll be a super early riser and will be way more productive. I like doing things for myself before work, but I hardly ever get up early enough – and if I do make time, that just means I push back when I go in to the office, which I can’t do most days.
So far I’m not that great at it. Wish me luck!
I used to feel like I was a pretty good writer, and now I can never get started. Maybe I’m trying too hard. I want to blog more but I’ve been holding myself back.
Let’s dive in.
I started training for my first full marathon two weeks ago. So far it’s not going so great. The first week I didn’t do my long run and skipped one of my short ones, too. Last week I got my long run in and it felt great, but I didn’t do my short run yesterday and I’m currently avoiding the gym and risking skipping my run today, too. This is not good at all. I just hate driving in the snow and am not crazy about running on the treadmill. Unfortunately, with the roads how they are and the sidewalks completely impassable, running outside is really not an option, even if I wanted to brave the cold.
I’ve been doing pretty well on my other goals for the year. I inherited a sewing machine over the holidays and it just came back from the shop. I’ve been working on wedding decorations and just patched a pair of rain pants, so that hobby is going well. I got some music from my mom and had a short piano lesson with her, and have been practicing on my own with the little keyboard Lauren has here. I have cooked three real meals and feel like that habit is getting back on track again.
My reading and journaling is not going well. My books have been overdue at the library twice now and I haven’t made any progress. When I am home with plenty of time to do things, I want to go to bed at 8:30 and then hang out on instagram/netflix until 11. First of all, I should never be ready for bed before 10. Second of all, that computer time is supposed to be reading time and I’m very disappointed with myself.
I was recently promoted to full time, so I have one week left at Bdubs and will have a lot more time to devote to being good at my job, training really thoroughly for a marathon, planning the wedding, cultivating hobbies, and keeping up with myself and my friends. I currently feel like I’m sort of bad at my job, which is discouraging and unmotivating. As I get more confidant I think I’ll also feel more productive.
I FINALLY got my new lens (borrowed from my dad) out and took some photos of birds at the feeder at work, and they turned out really well! I need to take my camera out to some of our preserves and explore them and this rediscovered hobby. I was photo editor of the yearbook in high school and have really missed it. I also need to become more familiar with the properties my land trust manages and get to know Northwest Indiana better. All of this will help me improve at work. I really don’t want to disappoint them!
For future reference, here is my IU bucket list. I have a whole lot to complete in the next 9 months that I have here! I’ll be posting my past and future progress along the way. It’ll be a busy year!
(Bold is done)
Attend the Little 500 men’s and women’s race
Hike Around Griffey lake
Buy fresh produce at the Farmer’s Market
Dance to international music at the Lotus World and Arts Festival
Watch Breaking Away
Picnic along the Jordan River
See something at the IU Auditorium
Find your favorite brunch location in town
Take a nap near the fireplace in the IMU
Spend a summer in Bloomington
Try the cuisine at the international restaurants on 4th Street
Experience an opera at the Musical Arts Center
At night, lay on the ground and watch the lights change on the side of the IU Art Museum
Learn about controversial sex research at the Kinsey Institute
Pull an all-nighter at the Wells Library
Connect with a professor outside the classroom
Eat in the Tudor Room of IMU
Attend an African-American Art Institute Event
Look at the stars from the Kirkwood Observatory
Dip your feet in the Showalter Fountain
Wear IU Gear to the Homecoming Parade
Order freshly baked cookies late night
Support the local arts at the Buskirk Chumley Theater
Rock out to a live music show
Go bowling or see a free movie at the IMU
Sing along to a Straight No Chaser concert
Volunteer in the community
Shake the hand of the Herman B. Wells Statue
Score some free breadsticks
Go see a free comedy show
Paint the Jordan Avenue Bridge
Win a game of corn hole
Paint your face for an IU basketball game
Study in the Arboretum
Snap a photo of you in front of the Sample Gates
Kiss someone special in the Rose Well Garden House at midnight
Run the nearly naked mile
Take an elective in HPER
Request and read an old manuscript in the Lilly Library
Play frisbee in Dunn Meadow
Show your IU Pride at the Bucket Game
Shop and dine under the holiday lights in the square in downtown Bloomington
Learn about the culture at the Tibetan Buddhist Monestary
Sing the Fight Song at a bar
And here are some additions, most of which have been taken from a friend.
Climb the firetower
Go to a themed party
Get Ken Nunn to buy you a drink
Go to Chicago
Win an award/scholarship
Do a bar crawl with people you love
Do an Ironman
Gorge your face at Mother Bear’s
Go to the Quarries
Go to Nashville, IN
Martinis at Scholars Inn
Stay at Kilroy’s- Open to Close
Wine Tasting at Oliver Winery
Get a parking ticket
Write a comment for the IDS
Take a class “just cause”
Be an art snob at the IU Art Museum
Get a hairy bear and sing karaoke at Bear’s
Take a tour of Upland Brewery
Complete a beer club challenge
Visit the greenhouse
Run the JB5k